World Trials 2010 Birmingham

People keep asking me "what happened?" and at first all I could say was "im not fit enough"but I don't really believe thats true because I wouldn't of stood on the line if I didn't think id make the team, so I had a think and spoke to my parents and Liz and we realised how tired I was and still am. As I said in the report after the national I usually wake up the morning of the race buzzing with excitement but before the race I didn't get up straight away, and was really sleepy pretty much until I got to the course..... I think all the weeks of training had caught up with me and was carrying this into the race. I think this is the reason for the poor result at the weekend.

I know people keep saying that I was injured, wasnt running 2 months ago and didnt give myself enough time to get fit.... however I dont believe that I wasn't fit, my National result which I was quite happy with indicated otherwise. I knew I wasn't flying and that the weekend would be hard, but all the same I thought id have a better result than 8th... but what can you do? Shouldve, Wouldve, Couldve scenario.... Just got to make sure that the next time I race, il get it spot on, and be back to where I was.

At first I was gutted about not making the team and still am, however I can talk about it now, without feeling like im going to cry..... which as embarrasing as it is to admit, I did on the train on the way back to Scotland. I think that proves how much it meant to me and how gutted I was that it didnt come off as id wanted it too after all the work I put in trying to get back into shape. As Nick put it in a text saying "well done" which I read and was like whaaaat? I need to "man up" lol.. fair enough I think :)

Well I hope to see everyone at the National Road Relays in April, Good Luck to everyone racing before then, especially at the Worlds.

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